1. SUSAN ESSARY
About the time of her divorce, Susan Essary started meeting friends for beers and whiskey on the weekends.
She normally only drank on holidays, Essary said, but two cans of Miller and two shots of Jack Daniels made it easier to talk. She vented about co-workers, her ex's nosy family and the tiresome queasiness that gripped her each day after work.
"I could bring up things that really bothered me," she recalled.
Just 23, Essary wasn't alarmed to feel sick. Everyone seemed to be trading flu viruses at the hospital where she worked as a nurse's assistant, preparing operating tables. The graveyard shift and sunrise dinners upset her stomach. She had just filed paperwork to end a gut-wrenching marriage with a man who had choked and punched her, and was now bound for prison.
Essary's mother suspected something else. She noticed a familiar rhythm to her daughter's nausea and mood swings.
"Go to the store and pick up a pregnancy test," she texted.
Essary, who had been using birth control pills for months, told her mother she was crazy. "She just wanted another grandbaby."
Yet that night in the bathroom, Essary stared at a home pregnancy test as two blue lines appeared. Positive.
Doctors would tell Essary that antibiotics prescribed for an infection likely caused her birth control to fail. That discovery came much later.
For now, she pulled the second pregnancy test from the box. A shapeless worry began to form.
"That's actually when it came to my mind -- about the drinking," she said.
Nearly half of Alaska women who become pregnant did not plan to have a baby. Many women don't know that even moderate drinking can do irreversible damage to a child from conception to birth, beginning well before they realize they are pregnant.
Others know the risk and want to stop drinking, but can't.
As a result, thousands of people living in Alaska today were born with lifelong, irreparable brain damage caused by alcohol exposure in the womb. More than 150 more are born each year. Some will cost the public millions of dollars in social services, hospital bills, court fees, prison expenses and foster care over the course of their lives.
This is the story of what happens to babies exposed to alcohol during pregnancy, told by four Alaska mothers who hope to help other women avoid repeating their mistakes.
First, the science.
The trouble begins within days of conception, as alcohol consumed by the mother kills cells destined to become the building blocks of her baby's brain, organs and central nervous system. Her child may suffer memory lapses, learning disabilities and a range of behavioral problems, including dangerous impulsivity.
In the most serious cases, the disability is called fetal alcohol syndrome. It punches holes in the brain's ability to process information and reshapes the child's face.
While most states do not reliably track the number of children born with FAS or other fetal alcohol spectrum disorders, health officials suspect hard-drinking Alaska has the highest rate in the country. Women of child-bearing age here are 20 percent more likely to binge drink than the national average, according to the national Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.
After a decline in FAS cases in the state, the Division of Public Health more recently reports a puzzling trend of Alaska women increasingly saying they drank while pregnant.
"At the grocery store I see the kids running up and down the aisles and I see it in their faces," said Gayle Young, coordinator for the FAS diagnostic team in Sitka.
At the current rate of testing, most children and especially most adults with an alcohol-related birth defect will never be diagnosed. Yet Young recognizes the hallmark facial features of FAS on parents and grandparents too, she said, and in white-collar offices and corporate board rooms around Alaska.
"It's a silent epidemic," she said.
2. JAMIE GAGNON
Jamie Gagnon knew drinking while pregnant was dangerous. Her sister-in-law had warned her about fetal alcohol syndrome. Even though she had once been fired from a restaurant for drinking cooking vodka as a teenager, she stayed dry all through her first pregnancy.
When Gagnon later moved to Alaska and divorced, the binging still felt under control.
That changed when Gagnon began dating a neighbor in her South Anchorage apartment, she said. He was always angry, it seemed, but she married him anyway.
Usually her clothes hid the bruises, she said. Once a beer drinker, she progressed to buying a gallon of rum every weekend. She cured hangovers with more booze. This time, she figured, pregnancy was no reason to stop drinking. Afraid to have her husband's baby, Gagnon had been planning an abortion. When Anchorage police watched her Oldsmobile Bravada bounce across a Dimond Boulevard median, it led to a charge of drunken driving. Her blood-alcohol level was more than twice the legal limit.
The judge told Gagnon, then 24, to stay away from liquor. She showed up to court smelling like Captain Morgan's.
Gagnon walked into her cell three months pregnant. By the time she left prison, she had abandoned thoughts of terminating the pregnancy. She now thought of her unborn daughter as a guardian angel.
"I'm in jail and she was like my best friend," said Gagnon, who is now 35 and will be five years sober in March. "I wasn't alone," she said. "It's been that way ever since."
Although rates of FAS are highest in rural corners of the state, the disability crosses all races, cultures and regions. Nationwide, it's white, college-educated women in their mid-30s and 40s who are most likely to drink during pregnancy, the CDC says.
Contrary to conventional wisdom, "this is not just a problem in the Alaska Native population. It's not just a problem in Alaska. It's a problem anywhere people drink," said Deb Evensen, an FAS expert for the Anchorage School District.
Just two generations ago, the disability went undiagnosed by modern medicine. Though scholars across history had speculated about a link between alcohol and "withered" newborns, University of Washington Medical School researchers first named and identified FAS in 1973.
"Clear references to the dangers of drinking alcohol while pregnant date back to biblical days," said Dr. Susan Astley, a University of Washington fetal alcohol syndrome expert and director of the Washington State FAS Diagnostic & Prevention Network.
"Behold, thou shalt conceive, and bear a son; and now drink no wine nor strong drink," warns the King James Bible, in Judges 13:7.
Today FAS is considered the leading cause of "intellectual disability," what used to be called mental retardation, in the Western world. Although wholly preventable, FAS is as common as autism in the United States.
The availability and toxicity of alcohol to a developing fetus both fuel the problem.
Many substances, including most illegal drugs, can damage an unborn child. The worst of these -- the ones that can cause serious malformations in developing fetuses -- are called teratogens. Lead, mercury and radiation are all teratogens.
Alcohol is a teratogen and by far the one most commonly encountered by humans. Alcohol is more likely to cause brain damage and lifelong behavior problems in unborn children than either crack cocaine or heroin, which can also harm the baby, according to The Institute of Medicine.
"The legal drug is worse than the illicit drugs in terms of its impact on a fetus," said Marilyn Pierce-Bulger, an Anchorage nurse practitioner who diagnoses alcohol-related birth defects in Alaska children. "(Alcohol) kills and alters cells in a way that these other things can't."
The damage can begin immediately after conception, when heavy drinking can kill the just-fertilized egg.
Six to nine days after conception, the developing embryo anchors to the wall of the mother's uterus. Now connected by the umbilical cord, the once-floating embryo and its mother share nutrients, oxygen and toxins. From now until birth, for nine months, the mother and baby will drink -- or not drink -- together.
During the third week of gestation, about 17 to 21 days after conception, the embryo is the size of the tip of a pen, yet the brain, spinal cord and other organs are forming.
During this narrow span of days, alcohol can alter the blueprint for a child's face, resulting in narrow eye openings, a thin upper lip and a flattening of the philtrum (the indention between the nose and upper lip).
"Nothing except alcohol will cause these three features together," Pierce-Bulger said.
At this point, less than a month after conception, most women still wouldn't realize they're pregnant.
"Those facial features are forming right around the time she may miss a (menstrual) period," said Pierce-Bulger, who worked for decades as a nurse midwife at the Alaska Native Medical Center. "Most of the women that I know and have worked with for 30 years aren't paying attention (this early in a pregnancy)."
3. HEIDI ANNE CASE
Raised a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Utah, Heidi Anne Case was married at 19. The Mormon faith emphasizes teetotaling and abstinence before marriage. She never learned much about dating or drinking.
After her divorce in 2004, at age 27, Case test-drove a new life. First there was the guy at the pool hall and a one-night stand. "I know his name, and that's about it," she said.
Then the three-day cruise along the lagoons and sun-baked cities of the Mexican Riviera. Case read magazines and watched the waves with her best friend, always with a Malibu Rum and Coke in hand.
"We actually were on the 'party boat,' so that made it even worse. The drinks are free," she said.
About two weeks after the cruise, a bolt of realization struck her. When was her last period? She raced to a dollar store and bought a pregnancy test.
"I had no clue, first of all, that I was pregnant, and second of all, that FAS even existed," Case said. "It's against our religion, basically to drink and be that type of person."
Already the mother of four healthy children, she knew how a pregnancy ought to feel. This one was different.
She made an appointment for an abortion, which was also against her religion -- and something she had never thought she could do. "That's when they told me I was too far along."
She had passed her first trimester. Six weeks before her due date, the doctors urged her to induce delivery because the baby was showing "a failure to thrive."
"He had stopped growing," Case said.
By the fourth week of pregnancy, a baby's rapidly developing heart is beating. Alcohol exposure can cause either too little or too much vitamin A, leading to heart valve abnormalities and a greater risk of heart disease.
All areas of the brain are vulnerable. The corpus callosum -- the bundle of fibers responsible for communication between the left and right halves of the brain -- can under-develop, leading to a slew of behavioral and brain problems.
Damage to the fetal central nervous system can leave children overwhelmed by their senses, making bright lights, loud sounds or even the touch of certain clothing and fabrics unbearable.
A recent study by the University of California-San Francisco found that children with such sensory processing disorders were likely to have abnormal "white matter," meaning nerves damaged by alcohol exposure in the womb.
Many of the most serious defects in the heart, organs and limbs of an alcohol-exposed fetus occur in the first eight weeks. But a mother's later drinking can damage the fetus' central nervous system, meaning the brain and spine, at any point during the pregnancy. It also leads to a physically smaller child.
Kids with fetal alcohol syndrome are generally shorter and weigh less than 97 percent of their peers.
The brain of a child with FASD is like a jigsaw puzzle. Pieces are missing, but no one knows which ones. Family genetics, a mother's diet, how much alcohol the mother drank and what parts of the brain and body were forming at the time all play a role in whether the baby will develop fetal alcohol syndrome, some less visible disability or no measurable disability at all.
It's fetal Russian Roulette.
Studies of non-identical twins exposed to alcohol in the womb have found that one sibling can be diagnosed with fetal alcohol syndrome while the other shows no serious damage.
As an entirely avoidable birth defect, FASD is not hereditary. A girl born with a fetal alcohol spectrum disorder will not give birth to a baby with FASD unless she also drinks while pregnant.
4. HELEN BENSON
"I drank as an escape. I knew it wasn't good for my baby," said Helen Benson, who began using cocaine at 16. By her late 20s she had graduated to smoking crack.
In 2006, at age 30, she became pregnant. The baby's father, tall and blonde with ice blue eyes, seemed nice enough at first, she said. After a few months, Benson heard rumors he was cheating and the couple began to squabble constantly -- about money, house-cleaning, his drinking.
Mutual drug use amplified the fighting. Sometimes the boyfriend got high on meth and slammed her into walls. The sex turned violent, with his big hands at her throat.
Benson began missing her periods. Pregnancy made the relationship worse.
"He fed me (crack) like it was candy," she said. "He hoped I would miscarry."
Alcohol was always easier to get than drugs, so Benson binged on Jack Daniels and Coke more often than crack cocaine. She drank until she threw up, then drank some more.
It was her boyfriend's mother, in a series of furtive phone calls, who convinced her to escape the relationship and get sober.
"She said, 'You're carrying my grandchild, please give this baby a chance.' "
Benson fled to a domestic violence shelter. Six months pregnant, she began meeting with an obstetrician.
As her mind cleared, Benson began to wonder: Would her daughter be born with disabilities? Would she look different than other children? Would she be OK?
There was nothing to do except stop drinking and using drugs.
"She changed my life," said Benson. "If it wasn't for her, I can't say that I'd still be here. She was my motivation for sobering up."
Benson named her Serenity.
Next: In Part 2, on Tuesday, meet the children.
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What separates FASD from FAS?
FASD stands for fetal alcohol spectrum disorders, an umbrella term that refers to a variety of disabilities and birth defects caused by a mother's alcohol consumption while pregnant.
FAS stands for fetal alcohol syndrome, a specific medical condition that includes a trio of distinct facial features, undersized height and weight and damage to the central nervous system. It is considered the most severe of the fetal alcohol spectrum disorders.More in the State of Intoxication series
By KYLE HOPKINS